Today's Earworm

God, if You really love me, You'll kill me as I sleep tonight.

No, I'm not going to do it myself. It's up to Him.

What's the point?

A man goes to work, where he has to drop everything for everybody, gets constantly told he's not doing good enough, or that he's doing it wrong, and has to do it the boss's way or he'll get fired.

Then he goes home to the love and comfort of his family. Where he has to drop everything for everybody, gets constantly told he's not doing enough, or that he's doing it wrong, and he has to do everything her way or he'll get fired divorced.

So then he turns to the hope and comfort of his religion. Where he gets told from the pulpit that he's not good enough, or that he's doing it wrong, and that he should drop everything for everyone else, and he has to do it God's way or he'll get fired eternally.

Seriously, why bother?

Rip it out a little slower, please, so it'll hurt more.

"Daddy, I wish we had one house, and we all lived together, and you and Mommy didn't fight all the time, and we had a pool inside that didn't freeze in the winter and we could go swimming all the time." -Progeny, today when I took her to Wendy's for lunch.


Please, just kill me now.

Today's Earworm

A co-worker of mine was humming this song at work today. And now it must be shared.

Please pray for a friend of mine

She had to make the most difficult decision any woman can. She recently found out she's pregnant, even though she had herself sterilized because of life threatening issues with her past pregnancies. She is the sole breadwinner in her home, her husband is disabled. She already has 2 little ones at home. She opted to have an abortion, otherwise her Doctor tells her she will die. She confided this to me today. She feels very ashamed.

I am Catholic. I have a moral objection to abortion. I can point to people like St. Gianna Molla, who heroically chose to die rather than abort her baby.

I did not do so. I did the only thing I knew to to do. I said, "I'll pray for you."

I could have chosen to take a hard moral stand, and did not. I hope I did the right thing in the eyes of my Lord. All I could think was "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone." She chose to confide in me, seeking understanding, and I think, compassion. That had to be extremely difficult for her.

So please pray for my friend and for her unborn child.

Of course I'm incompetent...

I've only been working in the food, beverage and hospitality industries in one capacity or another since I was 12. Of course 2 Medium No Salt Fries would be too hard for me to figure out.

And of course the reason we opened late was all MY fault, even though you rode my ass like a rented mule because the inside of the fryer and a surface that doesn't even TOUCH food wasn't shiny enough.

I'm so very glad you've put in your 2 weeks notice. Otherwise, I would have.

Update

So Monday I went to court in Other State and my wife chose to drop the Restraining Order. We spent some time discussing our perspectives and airing our grievances, and getting caught up. I also got to hug Progeny for the first time in months, for which I am profoundly grateful.

I want to thank everyone who contributed to my legal fund, or who helped where they could, even with prayers, for their help. This has been a very long ordeal. My wife and I are at a place where we can get counselling, and hopefully heal our relationship. We are still physically separated, and are working on building a relationship based on freedom and mutual love and respect, with hopefully much less toxicity.

For the time being, I am going to be concentrating on my family and on healing myself and my relationship, and will be blogging less. I am NOT hanging it up, I just won't be here as much, but will blog when I can. You are my friends, and I hope to keep ya'll in my life as well. I will be stalking lurking hanging out at ya'll's blogs still, and hopefully commenting as well. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

I guess that's it for the time being. I'll be around. See you around the intarwebs.